dilemma?

your confusion has confused me.

i dont quite know what exactly it is you want.

or rather WHO exactly it is you want.

all of a sudden,

whenever she is present the smile carved on your face seems to fall ever so naturally,

so much so it seems like a million sparks are exploding in your heart.

and the time you spend with me seems to bring out a forced smile on your face,

showing your lack of interest,

that you'd rather be with her,

and your just entertaining me for the sake of entertaining,

for me eyes to see and be deceived,

that everything is just perfecto.

shhhheeeeeeshhhh.

it f***ing kills me to make it seem like it doesnt mean a single shit to me.

that lil flame that once glowed and burned ever so brightly,

rich with all the colours,

resembled US.

now all i see is a dim light flickering away almost as though it would go off anytime,

thanks to you.

if you were sooo interested in putting out flames,

be my guest and be a fireman.

just dont extinguish this light.

darn it.

somehow no matter what i do,

all i think about is you.

babyyy your such a hot mess.

you have practically drawn me into a sudden dilemma.

"metamorphinisingg."

so i know it seems as though i created this huge void.

all the nonsense i make you put up with.

but somehow idiot your still the one who dwells in my heart,

foreva moree.

just send me a freakinggg sign saying you faham.

any sign goddamnit.

"conscious effort being played by me, and trying to disown whateva i see."

regardless of what you think,how you feel bout me,

im sooo tired with this.

totally sick with this game of charades.

'sigh with me baby SIGH.'

xoxo,

~aLLy~